#i've been relistening since feb

[thefearandnow]

Happy New Year! 🥂

I've had this post saved for a while because since coming back to tumblr I've found it to be a really great space for setting myself accountable creatively. I've had a lot of ideas for goals I want to set for myself in 2023 so I'm gonna pin this post and keep coming back to it with progress/check ins. I'm also gonna queue this post for every month so I don't forget to revisit my list. Some stuff has to do with creating and some stuff are just personal things ✨

💀🎙 Write and produce monthly episodes of The Fear and Now

For my graduate degree I produced an analysis podcast about horror in fiction podcasts and part of changing my tumblr to The Fear and Now was partially to motivate me to make new episodes for the first time in more than 2 years. I'm basically going to reboot it entirely because I've become a much different producer since I started it but I'm excited to start working on it again. First step will be to relisten to the old episodes which is honestly what I'm most avoiding but I'm excited to do more analytical writing, research and use my improved editing skills to give it a facelift.

0/12

🎧 Write and post at least 25 Audio Drama Sunday posts

I've really been enjoying using tumblr as a way to recap my listening and get through my backlog of podcasts I want to listen to. On top of that it's been a great way to find new podcasts and support creators so I'm hoping to stay on a semi-weekly schedule but I'm also trying to set the expectation a little low 😅

1/25

🦉🌶 Finish writing the fiction podcast I started (8 episodes)

In 2022 I started writing my first ever fiction podcast, something I'd been wanting to do for years. It's been on hiatus for a few months but I want to come back around to it and at least get all the episodes in rough draft from.

2/8

✏️ Try NaNoWriMo for the first time

I discovered National Novel Writing Month (through a discord I'm a part of) this year and was a little too late to the party to try it myself but I'm really drawn to the idea of trying it November 2023. Of course, I think I'm gonna need to practice a lot to get myself prepared so I'm going to start setting daily word count goals every month.

Jan: 500 words | 75%

Feb: 500 words

📖 Read at least one novel a month

In 2022 some friends started a book club and it's really helped me get back into the habit of having structured reading time. Looking forward to reading more and keeping track of the new books I'll read in the new year!

1/12

💻 Give more feedback to writers/creators on tumblr

I've started following a few different writers on tumblr whose short stories I really enjoy and I want to get more into the habit of reaching out and telling them what I love about their work. It's one of those things that I've only recently spent much time thinking about but I think often I'm a passive enjoyer of content and want to actively be more involved as an audience member in 2023.

🎶 Self publish a mixtape of instrumentals

In 2022 I got into a routine of posting quick little sample-based sketches and beats. In the new year I want to take the best of those sketches and make them into a proper mixtape/EP that I'll publish via Bandcamp. I'm not really sure how to track the progress on something like this but I know I just want to have what I consider a finished project by this time next year.

✏️ Try NaNoWriMo for the first time.

I discovered National Novel Writing Month (through a discord I'm a part of) this year and was a little too late to the party to try it myself but I'm really drawn to the idea of trying it November 2023. Of course, I think I'm gonna need to practice a lot to get myself prepared so I'm going to start setting daily word count goals every month.

Jan: 500 words

✨ Explore my hair/gender expression

This one is literally impossible to quantify but it's something I want to reflect on and be more actively engaged with this year. So much of my life I feel like I've tried to ignore thinking about and exploring my own style and gender and its only recently that I've felt some regret about it. I want to buy new clothes and try new hairstyles and feel more comfortable in my own skin and I think I've found that for me I need to write it somewhere if I actually want to do the damn thing 😅 so this is me doing that lol

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Thoughts on the relisten.

We need to stop woobifying Martin. I love him as much as the next person but dude was a passive aggressive, jealous little shit to people that definitely did not deserve it. It's entertaining and understandable, and absolutely delightful when certain bastards deserve it, but he is not as soft as we make him out to be and I need fic of the cutting edges. (I would like to make it clear that I live for soft fic. Just, I'll take sharp fic recommendations if you have them)

God, every single interaction between Jon and Georgie in her flat is gold. Jon instantly getting irritated on her behalf when she told him he didn't need to leave for her date is gold.

"Prove it" "What would you never willingly tell me?" "Your accent sounds fake as hell"

The 180° of Melanie's "god guys this job is fine and I'm staying, I'm not even going to try to leave" to "I'm going to murder this bastard for keeping me here" is fascinating.

Jon's sassing Jude will always be a highlight. "Yes, I understand, you could easily kill me, I'm at your mercy, blah blah blah"

I appreciate the official transcripts, but [MUFFLED FEELINGS] does not describe how vehement and clearly "fuck you" it is

Ah yes, the episode where I went from "ooooh Elias is an evil bastard I love him" to "Elias is an evil bastard and I would kill him myself"

....did they just imply that Julia listens to The Archers too? Cause "Hunters all listen to the same soap opera" is very funny.

Julia and Trevor's gentle ribbing of each other is so good.

111, the episode where the yelling officially caught my attention and made me start listening.

I'm just so sad that we only got one episode with Gerard snarking. I'd listen to an offshoot with his running around messing shit up. "I'm not their bloody Monster Manual"

Forgot the context of "like colors, but if colors hated me" I know it's going punch me in the gut and end terribly, it's still a funny show.

Jon's actively trying not to ask Tim questions and choosing to trust folks has been talked about before but it is still such good character development.

I know it's part of being a VA, but the ability to telegraph enough emotion with just your voice to conjure mental pictures of facial expressions is fascinating. Also, Jonny's flustered stutter is amazing.

I listened to 118 the first time while doing the dishes and basically dancing around the kitchen. It was great the first time and is great the third time too. I know earlier drops are WAY healthier for the crew, but I really miss evening drops. Getting to scramble to finish supper so I could listen while cleaning up.

Ok, relistening to the Q&As while I'm at it and the bit about needing to trust the show not to curve ball into uncomfortable/unsafe topics is EXACTLY why I thought I hated horror and now love this show (tbf, I listen to a ton of horror that I didn't realize it was horror because I felt safe)

"There hasn't been an Alex" there was and she died.

I want to be Georgie Barker when I grow up.

I'd be pretty mentally unsound myself if I had the shit beaten out of me 13 times in what? 2 years?

Ooooh! The clay episode that came out immediately after I finished a pottery clay and wigged me the fuck out at the timing.

The sound design when Jon says "Stop." in Heavy Goods? Amazing. The ....hum? leading up to it and then the high pitched whine after is just good stuff.

Ok, pandemic messed with my ability to think about this doc, so I just missed half a season.

Listened to Movement of the Heavens 4 days ago, then got a little over bouncy about Flamsteed in the Isaac Newton bio of A Brief History of Time tonight (tldr: Newton was a garbage man). I know it was pulled from fact, but recognizing names is always fun.

Concrete Jungle is still probably my favorite statement giver.

Why does Helen have Michael's laugh? Not the echo, that's the Spiral, but the little sigh at the end is Michael's. Before being taken. Kudos to Imogen for replicating it perfectly, but why is it a thing?